In Tom Zuba’s book Permission to Mourn, he writes that the relationship continues and we define what we want that relationship to be. This has been both a comfort and a challenge to me. I intentionally choose to believe that the relationship continues; I choose this over and over.

What do I want our relationship to be? I want to feel his presence, talk to him, write a letter when I’m journaling. I want our relationship to bring me peace, comfort, and strength.

I’ve already written about signs but daily I ask for, look for, and accept signs that Richard is close by.

Not long after Richard died, I had a dream that he came and got me and we went to a cabin on a lake. We had a fun day of boating, talking, laughing, and catching up. At the end of the dream he told me that he wanted me to know where he was. He wanted me to know that he is healthy, happy, and alway near. I accept this dream as a sign that our relationship continues.

I believe our souls/spirits are eternal. I also believe our love is eternal. For this reason I choose to believe that our relationship did not end with Richard’s physical death.